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Does anyone have any recommendations for visual media, either of a serial or one shot type nature, (movies or series or whatever)?

with Sarah Conner going down in flames I am kinda at a loss right now.

So, 4^th ed D&D does in fact suck as much and more than I thought it would. It has a few ‘perks’ that are really just things like non core classes and the Tome of Battle books rehashed into new classes and a removal of any spell that doesn’t read deal some crappy damage and a minor status effect. The ability to do real legitimate battlefield control, buffing/debuffing, and social interaction basically don’t exist. I could see how if you hadnt played much 3.5 with other splat books it could be kinda ‘new’ and interesting, but I didn’t spot a single original thought that went into the piece and further it seems that it also dumbed down any RP stuff as well, for instance the gear chapter is a paragraph long in the PHB, it doesn’t even mention different outfits just fine clothing or things like a mirror or whistle. The advance of giving a few at will abilities does nothing to disguise the fact that EVERY class now reads do some DPS and maybe a minor status effect. Any possible spell or ability that might require a DM to make a judgement about or Rule 0 was nipped out instead. Munchkins can now play the game and not be a hastle as their ARENT any real options to take.

The World You scored 79 change, 79 wellbeing, 78 wisdom, and 46 truth

This card represents the continuance and never-ending cycle of life. The four figures in the corners of the card represent the 4 fixed zodiac signs that represent that the laws of the universe remain unchanged and orderly. The wreath surrounding the woman is symbolic of a zero which is the symbol of god and from which all things emerge. some extra words: integrating experiencing wholeness bringing parts together achieving dynamic balance combining creating synthesis joining together working in unison accomplishing realizing your goals prospering achieving your heart's desire seeing dreams come true flourishing finding a beautiful solution becoming involved contributing healing rendering a service using a gift or talent sharing what you have giving of yourself feeling engaged being active feeling fulfilled savoring the present taking pleasure in life enjoying peace of mind getting satisfaction finding contentment counting your blessings

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 92% on change You scored higher than 92% on wellbeing You scored higher than 82% on wisdom You scored higher than 13% on truth

Link: The What tarot card resembles you Test written by KamikazeParrot on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

This made me very happy.

Well this holiday (and I use the term loosly) was about what I expected.

+ Got my car, and get to take it back with me
+ Dropped the bomb about not going back to college and taking some time off next semester
+ Moon did give me a wonderful compliment.
+I get to leave early and make it for both rocky and dirge.

-The traditional big meal didnt exactly happen, most of our family is either dead now, senile, or out of country, so we had our 'Thanksgiving Dinner' at 4 in the afternoon. I wasnt hungry at the time, so mine wound up being at 6ish, cold, and by meself as I watched Meet the Parents.

-No positive encouragement, in either verbal/attitude, or more tangible assets as far as the move goes, of course I pretty much expected that.

-My mom did ask if I was "friends" with MP, course that is not the case, but it was just painful her asking, and being there for the asking. It is really amazing how little they know me.

-We also usually have a gathering of the other half of the family, but that is also called off this year. I actually enjoy that so I do miss it.

As a side note, I still need to find someone to put me up for fri/sat night and sat/sun night as well, though I can move back in on Sunday morning.

I have finally managed to do something for myself, it quite litterally might be the first thing I have ever done in that respect. My mom does see me as being her brother now, (left for a semester and never finished, and has a fairly messed up life history as well anyway) Also had sorta a heart to heart with mom, she was in a very self centered, "oh its my fault your life is ruined" (1 its not ruined 2 though you had somewhat to do with it, not in any of the ways you are thinking)

She fails to understand me its amazing really, course in her defense I thinks she really doenst know how much of a shithead father was/is (I hope that is the case anyway, if she DID/DOES know the full extent of things and still wants to say that 'oh he was just doing the best he could' then i really, really hate her. I would hope any random human would take away a child from someone who made their primary memory of childhood fear and hiding. Much less that childs mother)

She really didnt get it when I said that I am floating now, that my ONE life objective has been filled, dont work for Dad, be penniless on the street, heroin addict, selling myself on the corner, just as long as I dont work for him. I dont really have any specific goal, the kids thing would be nice, but I am not pushing that just yet, I am waiting for that to reach fullness. (and from the pragmatic point, a vaugely stable relationship might be and almost is requiiste for that to happen anyway) the only other ideas job/career etc are all just things to make that follow. I told her the biggest thing I could ever do is one day get over all that shit that happened with him, if ever. Her response was that I could just focus on the happy things, that it didint really even matter, that it was all just in my head (most of the scars are afterall healed over now). But after this, things will be better, I will have some leverage on some level, I will be able to choose about returning, or not. Ah bittersweet happiness. Hoever it is better than it has ever been, and its just possible if I work and get lucky, I might manage to keep it on the upswing.

If someone were to make a movie of your love life in your teens / twenties, it would be:
Deep and dialogue driven
Sweet and touching
Artistic and philosophical
Quirky and offbeat
A funny romantic flick with a twist
Dramatic with an unpredictable ending

Please loyal audience, tell me which it would be

Your Heart Is Red

You're a passionate lover - you always have a huge fire in your heart. Too bad it's hard for you to be passionate about just one person! Your flirting style: Outgoing and sexy Your lucky first date: Drinks and dancing Your dream lover: Is both stable and intense What you bring to relationships: Honesty

One I highly agree with. Though for those who know me, monogamy is possible but not a prefrence, nor is it completely out of the question.

BLUE


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If you would like, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

This is what I spend my time doing. A few moments ago I was having to look up the specific heat capacities of substances because I am trying to make the "best" Ice Wand that I possibly can. Leave it to me to need to break into a physical science lesson in the pursuit of being able to make a sex toy. Course problem is right now that I need to get more info than I have, so I am awaiting MP to wake up so that I can pick him on a few points.

I have to keep in mind a few variables,
1 specific heat capactiy, how much "heat" it stores per gram

2 density H2 (gas) for example has a stupid high specific heat, but because it has NO density I am having to wait for MP to get up to help me go through a quick estimation of how much pressure could the H2 gas be under safely. I know I can fudge more here as I dont need to worry about the problems of heating a pressurized gas, only cooling it. Some trouble with it being in a heated car, but nothing along the lines of even an open flame or anything. I am thinking that given the numbers I have seen so far, it prob wouldnt work to make it out of H2 as well as the problem of getting the H2 itself, He its close runner up, though still much lower specific heat I am almost sure that when combined with the density factor it would be easier to just go ahead and fill the wand with water, hehe heavy water if i could just find some sitting aroung, but yeah the gov is pretty strict about such things as dat.

So apparantly my best/avilible matterials will be either stainless steel for the wand itself, or aluminum. Copper, which I already have is ok, but the aluminum and stainless steel are both better and neither should be hard to get. Their were a few other choices as far as the body construction, but I have to get something that is highly conductive, rattan for instance would work very well, except it would *i think* wind up insulating itself and not loosing heat as an object but as a partial. So the next question then is what core do i want, becasue it will almost have to be in the form of a hollow shell with a core that is the main heat storage component. The pressurised H2 or He look like good options, however the water might be just as easy to work with and without all the hassle. Another plus to the usage of the water, it wouldnt require the wand to be sealed on a permanent basis, I could use it for temp play as well if it had a removable cap, and I would also have the option of just filling the wand directly with ice in the case of not being able to freeze the wand itself, or for mid-scene recharges from bucket o' ice, as well as the trully devilish posibility of using dry ice. ( I do remember though that the sense of touch: thermal: cold winds up bluring at temps that are even still above freezing, with it getting progressivly worse as the temp drops, the sensation of cold having much more to do with temp discrepensy than any actual measure of the thermal environment as a whole. Another plus to the idea of the water wand, I could gt a cap/attatchment that would be Violet Wand friendly, thus i could use it in tandem, which i have seen recomended, as well as the fun of the trick of ice and a dull knife. Apparantly the senses blur with something like a dull knife pressing on skin that is very cold, its supposed to give a very earnest sensation of having been cut.

So yes, this is me, sitting around at 5 in the morning on haloween thinking about the physics/chemestry involved in the construction fabrication and logistical creation of an Ice Wand to be used in kinky sex/bdsm acts. A very quentessentially "me" moment. hehe like the one i get when i realize i am staring at someone and enjoying doing so, not on the basis of what is termed "beauty" but something more esoteric, like the awareness of how she/he appears "beautiful" in terms of ligaments, muscle tone, skin tone and tension, physical placement in the environment, etc, but failing at that exact moment to view the beauty itself and just gorging myself in the construction based details of the appearance.

mm, I realize i am prob 'off' right now as i am doing something out of charachter, it might be as simple as a small lack of sleep, with the fact my mp3 player is playing a nice elec blend of things that keep me from hearing 1 the profound silence of a quite empty place 2 the annoying clicking of keys on the keyboard.

I prob have lots of emotional venting that I could be doing right now, I am failing Port and dont know if I can save it, which means no Port 2 next semester, which means no Port 3 next fall, which means that my whole graduation, already a semster behind is delayed by a full year then assuming i cant finagle something. I didnt go to the midterm that was on friday, to some degree I "faked" being sick, but to a great degree as well I *wasnt*. Its just so wonderfully frustrating, to be a dunce in something that to many of my friends is easy and apparantly is even for the 'norm' not a wholey "hard" task. Added to that the fact I had to STOP taking latin which I did know and was even thinking in to a extent and was at least understanding well, on the basis that Psych majors for no real reason CANT take latin for their requirement. Then from there i devolve into hating the whole stupid idea that NOW after years of NOTHING i have to learn a language I can never really be proficient in, have no desire to learn, and see little/no merit in learning. Sides its not as if learning to speak spanish for instance really even matters, the casual usage and utterance is so removed from what you will learn anyway that its nearly incorrect to say they are the same languages. If i keep bitching/writing about this i am going to break down and just curl into a ball, so to move onto some other areas I would have to say that although some things have highly stressed me out / annoyed me to no end recently with a few things, nothing really *bad* has happened. I could prob work up an impressive rage at a few of these other things but nothing is quite so useless/hopeless/futile as the langauge requirements, everything else is either something that I have accepted i am not in direct control/effect/domain of and so to a great degree can only accept the changing winds as they come, and just try to make it all up as I go, or they are things that even though I can be mightily annoyed at, either I realize I dont really care that much, or that its non optional, or that I cant do anything about it anyway.

One point that I think will at least slightly interest at least one reader is that I am fully aware and have been for a long time now, that I really would like a stable relationship, not random sex even if it is/would be really good random sex. Something that I could actually invest emotional energy into, without it being a 'bad' thing, a neutral thing, or even a unreturned thing.

I think back and realize that I dont know if i have ever had a full relationship, the vast majority as many of you know were sexual/lust based, which i was/am fine with, I even think they are something more ppl should indulge in, sex can be/is a most wonderful intimate thing, but contrary to what some think, i feel that that degree of intimacy is not something that is limited to only a few, I belive it can be much more common than it often is. I have also had a few relationships that did, to me anyway have something resembling an emotional connection maybe tenuous, but SOMETHING was there. I also have/had stable relationships (ones with ORE old relationship energy) ones that I could be comfy with the person, that just being with them was a goodness and that we had gotten to the point of knowing each other, beyond just intimacy to being able to run internalizations of the other person with accuracy. The ones that really let you know/define yourself because you KNOW where you are alike and diffrent and prob how/why as well.

It would just be very nice to be with someone, (which of course is part of the problem, someone, course saying NAME is usually about as bad)

I am running out of ways to type, but still feel like I would like to talk so anyone that wants to pick at anything, from what materials I was choosing, to the emotional ‘me’ stuff, to something that I didn’t even mention, ( I love getting called/imed it sends a wonderful thrill through me to have someone call or im and just say hi, it really brightens my day so feel free to do so) and I will see you all later. If you aren’t busy tonight, their will be a show at legends I am helping in, but everyone prob has plans and given my circles religious observances as well. I love you all and will see you soon.


(BTW thank you everyone who has been with me for the past few bad moments I have had, I appreciate it very much, more than you would imagine, its still novel to me in many ways to have ppl to talk to, and I still have issues there, but I am getting better I hope.)

Non Force Sensitve

You do not directly use the Force, but it resides
in you at all times. You don't have (or wish to
have) the disepline of the Jedi, and you are
not so hateful as to become Sith. You are a
free and unique person, just trying to get by
in life. You probably enjoy the company of your
friends the most, and hope to find your love.
Though you are not as rare as the Force
sensitive, your need to be a free individual
overrides all THEIR self defining restrictions.
You understand that life is too strange and too
fun to be caged by the Force.


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I personally would have imagined myself to be more of the Gray Jedi, though truth be told according to the "history" of star wars I have read, I would have been a perfect original Sith member. Apparantly the original Sith were not "evil" but were self centered, Me focused rather than selfless, something much closer the tenents of "true" satanism than anything else, in which case I would fit perfetly.

Gimme some sugar baby.


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something def more "me"

PALADIN

You are the Paladin, the
ultimate warrior for God. The Paladin
represents all that is good in the world.
Paladins fight evil at all costs. They do not
care for material pleasures of this world. They
have sworn their lives away to protecting the
innocent, avenging the victims of cruel
murders, and chasing after those who deserve
their punishments. The Paladin will do anything
to fulfill their duties. They will even
sacrifice themselves to save
another.

Color: White
Animal:
Dove
Gem: Diamond
Symbol:
Sword

Image:
http://www.deviantart.com/view/14400235/


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Anyone who knows me should get a kick out of this result :)

Googlism for: brett

brett is around
brett is a dirty bum looker
brett is god




from an oooolllllld aim log

Leave one memory of you and me together. It doesn't matter if I know you a little or a lot, anything you remember! Next, post this in your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you.

NIGHT MAGICK - Night Magick is a complete
curriculum of magical development based on the
Yin primal force, as opposed to the major
religions of the world, which are predominantly
Yang. You emphasize the use and balanced
developement of the Physical/Etheric Body, the
Astral/Emotional Body, the Mental Body, and the
Causal Body. Through regular and consistent
practice, you, the Night Magician will develop
psychic abilities, increased vitality, stronger
focus, and union with your Oversoul.


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Immaterian You scored 40% Real and 65% Unreal!

Regardless of whether you have a physical body, you spend most of your time in the Immateria. According to Alan Moore's Promethea, this is the realm of the imagination - where ideas and characters come into being. If you have a physical body, you spend more time constructing the world inside your head than in paying attention to the physical world. You should work on converting more of your ideas to concrete results. If you don't have a physical body, you are probably a vivid, major character in some artist's work.

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 37% on Reality You scored higher than 62% on Unreality

Link: The Are You Real, Mark 2 Test written by scottmcd on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

You scored as Buddhism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Buddhism. Do more research on Buddhism and possibly consider becoming Buddhist, if you are not already. In Buddhism, there are Four Noble Truths: (1) Life is suffering. (2) All suffering is caused by ignorance of the nature of reality and the craving, attachment, and grasping that result from such ignorance. (3) Suffering can be ended by overcoming ignorance and attachment. (4) The path to the suppression of suffering is the Noble Eightfold Path, which consists of right views, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right-mindedness, and right contemplation. These eight are usually divided into three categories that base the Buddhist faith: morality, wisdom, and samadhi, or concentration. In Buddhism, there is no hierarchy, nor caste system; the Buddha taught that one's spiritual worth is not based on birth. </td> Buddhism 83% Satanism 83% agnosticism 83% Paganism 71% Christianity 67% Hinduism 67% Islam 58% Judaism 58% atheism 50% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

and by choosing, "I have a strong belief and trust in myself over anything or one else in this world."
rather than "I find peace and self-control through meditation."

You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism. </td> Buddhism 83% Satanism 83% agnosticism 83% Paganism 71% Christianity 67% Hinduism 67% Islam 58% Judaism 58% atheism 50% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

I am not surprised by either of those results, as both are very close to what I do belive, (some forms of course of either, any many Buddhists need to read the koan of what to do about the Buddha on the road, and any satanist that does a ritual to lucifer as anything other than a First is equally ignoring a fundamental truth.

I do hope though that this will at least make some ppl curious and ask further.

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